Thursday, October 23, 2008

Starting Over Tomorrow

Ephesians 6:13 "Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand."

I needed that armor today. Verse 16 mentions the flaming arrows that the evil one will shoot at us. Greg and I have been dodging those all week! The arrows have come in all sizes, from little stings of inconvenience to painful wounds of worry. Have y'all ever been through that? I know you have. God gave us this passage of scripture because we need it!

Today both Greg and I felt a weakening in our defenses. After being under attack all week, mutiny reared its ugly head and suddenly we were battling each other, rather than standing together against our common enemy. How did that happen? Well, I was naked. I didn't have my armor on. I've overslept the last two days and hadn't armed myself with the sword of God's word. I'd lowered my shield of faith, wavering and allowing myself to worry. God knows our needs and will provide for them. I knew that. How many times have I reminded others of that when they were worried? More times than I could count. Yikes. I've got a log in my eye there...

Blah. This isn't my normal weakness. I've got lots of them, but not trusting God to provide isn't normally one of them. I thought I was "firm" on that. Looks like my self-confidence there got me in trouble. Anytime I think "Oh, I've got that one" I become vulnerable to attack. It's not about me and what I can do or what I think I've got covered. It's all about God and how powerful He is.

Thankfully, all is well that ends well. Greg and I are back on the same team and I've got a God who will forgive my pride and carelessness. The best part about being a Christian this side of heaven? For me, it's knowing that I'm washed clean every time I repent of sin. Thank you, God!

1 comment:

R. Sutphin said...

Oh Sharon. I think this is sometimes very hard to do. Our Pastor just did her sermon yesterday on this very thing. That saying "Let go and Leg God" is so true. If only I didn't have the free will to over think and start to question the direction in which he is sending me.

I will pray for peace for you as you continue through your difficult time.